"Widowed by 30" was definitely not on my list of accomplishments when I was planning what my life would look like years ago. In fact nothing about my life right now resembles what I had imagined. That life was forever altered the minute my husband choked out the words, "...I have leukemia," in the parking lot of the urgent care clinic down the street from our house. Over the next three years, I was on a series of "rollercoaster journeys" that for better or worse, was the ride of my life. In the beginning, we were together on this ride that neither one of us had control over, but there came a point in which I had to get off that coaster and get onto my own...without him. The twists and turns along the way have been terrifying, gut-wrenching, and occasionally, exhilarating. Having survived a 20-month battle with the disease that ultimately won and claimed the life of my best friend and life partner, I'm trying to regain my equilibrium and redefine my life.